Tuesday’s Thoughts

Life – it’s a funny thing…..sometimes you can have everything going your way and you still are not happy, other times your life can be troublesome and things not going your way but it’s ok – you can brush it all off…

What affects us as humans can vary from person to person, day to day and even minute to minute. Stress is a very personal thing and again affects everyone differently.

Looking at myself – sometimes I thrive on the pressure and stress in my life and actually enjoy the situation. On other days something that can seem so trivial – causes serious amounts of stress and make it feel like life is ending.

How we cope is all important- sometimes you can’t go to pieces and bury your head in the sand, life has to go on. On other days, you need to do just that, not necessarily ignoring the problem forever but spending a period of time, relaxing and putting the issue on the back burner.

Food always plays a massive part in my emotional state, I eat when I’m sad,angry, tired, happy – you name an emotion food is probably involved somewhere. I think that this is the key to my weight loss journey – I need to control my emotional eating.

So the question is – how do you cope with stress – and stop yourself diving headfirst into a tub of ice cream.

Moving forward….one step at a time!

I know it’s been a while since I posted – and that’s because I have been spending time focussing on me.

In general my journey is moving forward but like all journeys sometimes you have to take a few steps back to realise how far you’ve actually come.

I’m nowhere near the end of my journey but this week I’ve made so much progress in how I feel and understanding myself.

Over the last two weeks I have been in self-destruct mode and not really cared about looking after myself. I could see no real point in carrying on, with the end so far away. Some good friends have made me see how far I have come and that it is worth carrying on, it’s been a tough two weeks but I’m moving past it.

In addition and my final point is that my personal trainer needs a mention, he is always available to help me and in his words “it’s not just about the two hours a week” – I can say that without him I would have fallen at the very first hurdle.

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Or on instagram @tommarchpt

Auschwitz – my reflections…..

Hubby and I travelled to Poland and the beautiful city of Krakow recently. We stayed for four days and generally had a wonderful time – more on that in another post.

Before travelling we booked an excursion to Auschwitz – the largest Nazi Concentration Camp. Everyone we told we were going had an intake of breath – and I understand that. Some people go on holiday to relax and just have a good time, and others can’t bear thinking about what happened there.

Just want to add, I’m not judging anyone who chooses not to visit!

My view, was that if I didn’t go whilst visiting Krakow, it would be like I was trying to block out or deny what had happened. So we booked to go with a company called Escape2Poland and the service was first class.

We were collected from our hotel and transported to the main Auschwitz camp – en route we watched a DVD with some information and historical images of the camps. If I’m being honest, just the DVD made me feel nauseous and sad.

We arrived at the camp and were processed through the security, including bag searches and scanners similar to the ones at the airport. We were then given a little radio box so that we could all hear what our guide was saying as he walked us round. Walking through the gate, the image of which is iconic, was surreal. Knowing what happened beyond that gate, and what I was about to see, I was apprehensive.

As we walked round and the reality of what happened hit me, I started to feel more and more sorrowful, and got a little tearful. Obviously I was aware of what had happened before I went there, but actually being there and seeing the piles of shoes and other personal effects, and seeing how they were kept, it made it all seem so real.

The place that really got me, was the final stop on this part of the tour, the gas chamber and crematorium, where thousands of people died. There was a feeling about that room that I don’t think will ever leave me. The tour guide spoke outside before we went in and then we entered in silence, for such an empty room, it was full of feelings.

We then made our way to AUSCHWITZ II – BIRKENAU, this was the camp where people arrived by train and the decision if they lived or died was made on a platform with the swipe of a man’s hand. I thought that this would affect me more, but I actually felt nothing….it was almost like I was numb. It’s hard to describe, the only way I can explain it is that because the buildings were destroyed and it’s quite a blank place until you get to the memorial, it’s hard to picture the evil that happened there and maybe it’s a little bit of not being able to comprehend how it could have happened.

We walked to the memorial where there were plaques in all of the languages, of people who had died there. This is the only picture that I want to share with you…I chose not to take any myself…..the credit for this one goes to my hubby.

New Me…an update…

So here we are in the middle of January and I thought I’d update on my progress. I started back at the gym properly on January 8th – and since then I’ve been six times! Visit number seven is today – I have a personal trainer but I’ve also been going on my own!

I’m not going to pretend I’ve been perfect – my eating still leaves a lot to be desired – but as a good friend said Rome wasn’t built in a day…

However there is something different in me – I want it this time. It’s very hard to put my finger on it but I feel different about it this time.

Only a brief post this morning – I’ve got to get ready to go to the gym!

Goals or Resolutions…

So I mentioned on my previous post that I have a number of goals that I want to achieve this year….however these aren’t New Years Resolutions but long term life goals.

The most important one of these is to improve my health….most of if not all of my health issues (of which there are a few) are related to my weight and to my poor eating habits.

I’m not going to tell people how much I weigh or how much I need to lose….the numbers are only really relevant to me, what I will say is that I am committed to improving my health in 2018….so I’ll be looking for support and encouragement along the way!

Anyone that knows me will know I have started many journeys and dropped off along the way – this time I want it to be different – anything I can do to improve my health is to be seen as a victory no matter how small.

It’s very easy to say ‘oh I’ve failed by eating a cake or having a glass of prosecco – so I may as well keep eating badly forever’ – and I admit I have sabotaged myself in the past with this thinking. However, I know I’m not perfect and I know that I still want to go out and enjoy myself, but I just need to eat better for the majority of the time, and then I can have the nice stuff!

So if you need to change something in your life – go for it….after all you have nothing to lose and everything to gain….

A new year…. and a look back!

So as we enter 2018 and a new year, I thought I would take the time to review 2017 and the events that made a difference in my life and the world around me.

2017 was definitely a year of mixed emotions – I went through the whole spectrum – happiness, anger, pride, heartbreak to mention a few.

I’ve taken the time to think about those we’ve lost, those we’ve been lucky enough to come into our lives and the constants that make our lives what they are.

So we leave 2017 behind and look forward to what is to come… in my case I have four holidays booked as well as some theatre trips and other bits and pieces.

More importantly I feel that 2018 will be the year of me – I have goals and resolutions but that’s not what it’s all about… it’s about making sure that the most important person is me…I need to put me first.

I’m sure there are people reading this who have no problem with putting themselves first – I have never been able to and this has resulted in me neglecting my own health and well-being. This year that is going to change!!!!

Happy New Year!!!!

Dubai Part 2

So I’m reaching the end of my holiday…but there is light at the end of the tunnel! Despite me telling everyone I wouldn’t be back to Dubai until 2020…..I will in fact be back in October 2018! This will be with my daughter and her partner and obviously hubby.

This trip has been full of things to do and see, but has been leisurely enough to allow for some well needed rest and relaxation.

Some of the things we wanted to do this time included:

The Miracle Garden – which has numerous sculptures made out of flowers.

The Green planet an indoor rainforest where I got up close and personal with Mr Sloth!

The global village – a trip round the world in one evening!

We’ve also tried lots of different foods and been to lots of different places – as this trip draws to an end (just two more days) I can honestly say I think it’s been my favourite so far!

Merry Christmas from Dubai!!

So I’m sitting here in Dubai for my first Christmas away from home – and I have to say I feel a little thoughtful. Don’t get me wrong – I am having the most amazing holiday and am with my best friend, but there is a little part of me that is missing being at home, in the cold, surrounded by my family.

This year has been a journey in so many ways, but mainly in how I see myself and those round me. I have realised that friendship isn’t about quantity but is totally about quality ….I have decided that surrounding myself with people who are actually interested in me, and not what they can get from me, is the way to move forward.

I have goals for the future, some that revolve around myself, some that revolve around my career and some that revolve around my life. However, this post isn’t the place to be declaring my goals, just somewhere to place that I have them.

Over the year we’ve all had our personal issues, be they big or small, that have affected the way our year has gone. These things have moulded us and helped us become the people we are today.

The decisions we make have implications on those around us, and sometimes we don’t realise that…make 2018 the year that you ensure you make the best decisions….

Merry Christmas x

Dubai 2017 – Part One

I’m sorry I haven’t been about much – but with work and family stuff before I came away – I simply ran out of time!

Anyway – I’ve finally arrived in Dubai for the very long awaited holiday. As you can see the weather is awful (lol) – we’ve now been here 6 days and we’ve done lots.

Dubai as I have said before is very much a city of two sides – the flash side

And the traditional or old side

Me personally I prefer the laid back pace of ‘Old Dubai’ but new Dubai is pretty cool too. We’ve just been taking things pretty slowly and resting – lots of photos on Facebook and Instagram.

To be continued….

Saturday night thoughts…

The other day I was talking about how time is precious and how we shouldn’t take anything for granted. Two things have happened this week to bring this home to me even more – firstly a colleague lost their son and secondly a Sky presenter lost his wife just three days after she was diagnosed with Leukaemia. At the start of the week neither family would have known what was going to happen to them and so probably didn’t have the time to say what they needed to or wanted to.

So as I sit here on my train home from work – I’m looking forward to seeing hubby and making sure that he knows how I feel about him.

I have lots of things planned with friends and family over the next two weeks – something that I probably wouldn’t have done before. Now I need to appreciate the important people in my life and make sure that they know I do. Anyone who is reading this that I have t got round to arranging something with – it will happen very soon!